Thursday, July 12, 2007

Can I get another opinion?

Where to begin, not much has happened this week. Just waiting for the big move and squashing small fires at work.

I’ve been going home and watching movies this week while Dave is in Jamaica. Superman returns, Ghost Rider, and some weird movie on HBO call happy ending. I’m also studying my Italian. So very exciting I know but it’s keeping me out of trouble. I’m going to have sushi with Kiat tonight which should be fun. I need to wash clothes too.

It’s so exciting I just don’t know what to do.

I got an email from my long lost friend Colleen today. It was good hearing from her. Seems she’s had another baby. Last time I talked to her she was pregnant and now there is this little human being. Amazing really. I’m trying to set up a time to go out to Virginia and see her and the family. It will be good to catch up.

So here is our schedule for the next couple of weeks.

Dave gets back on Friday and we have a quite weekend planed because the week after is going to be very hectic. I’m going to London and Dave is going back to Jamaica for the week. I get back on Thursday and he gets back on Friday. We then turn around and go straight back to the airport to catch a plane to New Burn, NC for my family reunion.

The next week Dave leaves for Jamaica for the week again and our friend Alex comes to stay with us for a bit. He’s looking for a place to rent here in DC and we’re putting him up until he finds it.

The weekend after that I will be moving my servers from our current location to an offsite facility. This is going to be fun but a mess of pain. Hopefully it will all work very easily. Keep your fingers crossed.

We then don’t really have plans for August except for Italian classes two times a week until we go to Italy at the end of August. Dave will probably be called down to Jamaica again. We’ll see.

Now on to another topic….

My mind is a little bit butterflyish today, it’s all over the place.

Work, I had the opportunity to think about it the other day. My boss and I had discussed me taking over some responsibility and getting a promotion. I thought this was going to definitely happen around review time.

And then I got my annual review.

It was a good review and I got the max raise that I could get, and then was told that they would be giving me the responsibility and NOT the promotion. We would look at the promotion again in three months. My boss said that he had proposed it too late to the powers that be.

I found this very funny in that the powers that be can make things happen the same day, I’ve seen them do it.

I was not happy at all. I left my boss’s office and went outside. I sat on a bench for three hours thinking.

It was like someone had punched me in the stomach. I had tears coming up and felt sick.

I’ve been at this job for over 7 years. I’ve seen many, many people promoted that do ¼ the work I do and who have been there one or two years. It just told me how appreciated I am here, as in not very.

This makes you reevaluate your life and what’s important and right now work isn’t it. I’m 40 years old and the idea of doing this for the rest of my life makes me feel quite ill. The stress from work has been affecting the rest of my life drastically, and not in a good way. I’m not sure what I’m going to do about it yet but I’ll keep the blog posted.

Enough for now.

3 comments:

Anthony said...

Well aren't you just a couple of international jet setters?!

As for you boss, that sounds like a crock of shit. If you are good enough to have the responsibility, you are good enough to have the title.

Think about it then have a chat with him putting your point across :-)

beatpunk said...

Your career horoscope for today, 07/13/07:

You spin into action like a Renaissance man, able to do every aspect of a current project or repair without assistance. Each component bends to your will and falls into place, so get moving so you can finish up.

Your extended overview horoscope for today:

You have a big supply of strength buried deep down inside of you right now, and when you combine it with your creativity, there is nothing that can slow you down today. Today you will be able to entertain yourself, distract your mind, and give yourself an internal 'happy place' to go to. Innocent comments from people you barely know will send you into fits of laughter. You are loving everything that your life is showing you. It's revealing new ideas and options.
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Now a note from me:

I love you, and I know you can get through this. I'm glad you got a great review; I'm not surprised that you did. Don't be the man sitting on the bench in the park forever.

Andy's Life said...

MUAH SQUEEZE. Can't be easy. But we must do what makes us happy life is too short to do anything else. Love you.